Dear Mom,
I am missing you tonight
no more, nor less than I have a moment you've been gone.
I am at a crossroads in my life right now
A whole new phase that requires many decisions, prayers, and luck
"Put positive vibes out into the universe and the universe will give it back to you"
I know that's what you're still saying.
I've always been an old soul, but I am finally learning what it feels like to truly grow up
And that is the part that is hard, I think.
You handled every situation thrown at you with such poise and grace
I only wish you were still here to guide me through.
It must be warm where you are because I haven't seen many signs of you around me
I only hope you're napping on the most heavenly beach, absorbing the day like a flower in the sun.
I never expected I would grow up with out you,
It was never in the plans I created for my life.
Through your story and the journey our family continues to face, I only hope I can help others
Grief is not a few steps to freedom
It has claws deeply imbedded in those you love
When you lose a person that was woven so deeply into you
That bathed you, raised you, and provided you with overflowing unconditional love that only a mother can give...
That requires time. It requires patience.
It requires you to step back, swallow your pride, and seek help from other sources
Sources that fill you up & strengthen you.
I love replaying our memories and seeing that smile that radiated through your eyes
My head is filled only with the most fond moments spent with you
And when you occasionally visit me in my dreams, you are youthful and energetic
Still rocking your platinum blonde pixi cut and STILL shopping the day away.
Mom, thank you for teaching me to value my self-worth and never settle for less than I deserve
Thank you for insisting that I always remain classy and ALWAYS stay strong.
I owe everything I am and everything I will ever be, to you
I love you always,
Sage
